Monday, June 7, 2021

Circus been in town all month whilst I been grieving so need to set these Clowns straight!

I've kept quite whilst we do things legally and it's been hard but the right thing to do but I'm not standing by when silly lying malicious drama Queens try messing with my family spouting ridiculous lies especially during the Month they know full well we are floored with grief on the 3rd anniversary of a month of hell!! 
SO Fuck It! 
Let's clear some BULLSHIT Up! 
 NOBODY Had HAD CONTACT WITH THE NARCISSISTIC BITCH SINCE I REPORTED  HER TO THE POLICE ON THE 12TH MARCH FOR PUTTING MY GRANDSONS LIFE IN DANGER CONTINOUSLY!  7 month old and having covid test because she was constantly out and about visiting friends and family driving miles. The turns up at my house with a girl she's always slags off that lives 13 miles away from her to pick my grandson up. Then trys being a bitch to my son by email all because baby cried when he seen her coz he didn't want to leave me!! 
That girl you brought here, YOU DID Contact the boy she accused of.... you ranted to me about it constantly at how disgusting you thought she was accusing boys of That just because they didn't want to be with her and playing on her disabilities! but then again you like to lie about things like that don't you. It's how you explained away your Cheating and HERPES!! Get some sympathy from real victims you sicko! 
Only Once I verbally abused you years ago when you called me a Cunt when arguing with Conah so I came upstairs laughed at you and I told you that you was out of order and that you needed to take a good look at your own family before calling me names. When you was leaving I said, bit of advice stop acting like a slag when your in a long term relationship. You were after all flirting with boys on the bed next to my son ffs! your mother turns up had the cheek to demand I apologise! And you both started mouthing you spouting bare faced lies to my face so I told you both fuck off lost my head abit and threatened to bounce you both up the street!! Wish I had now in hindsight May of brought you both down to reality you bloody clowns!! Oh told your mother start acting like a mother because I was constantly comforting you from Your home abuse!! According to you your father used to verbally abuse you all the time. Same as your telling people I used to do it and conah used. 
Ffs girl!! Just for your Information though SWEETY
I record everything! So do my kids! Remember that. I have some interesting footage. Video. Audio. Photos. Messages. ( I can start talking about all the time's you tried setting him up if you want) 
I'm a registered Foster carer you fool so phone the social services with your lies. Do it I can give them all my Truths about you!! 
THE Truth always Wins that's why I don't fucking lie you clown ! 
So in a nut shell DO NOT make out I always verbally abused you I was more of a mother to you than your own mother for over 7 yrs even though i hated the way you treated and manipulated my son but I did it because my son loved you and I actually felt sorry for all your sob stories which I honestly believe are bullshit now! I really don't think you was mistreated at home!! And I do regret that I let you paint your parents as deplorable ones and not finding out for myself because I'll never know if you got your traits from them or your just one fucked up human. 
We were just the fools for believing it like their the fools for believing you now. But the COURTS And My GRANDSON Won't. because I will show them all the proof. Oh and please STOP being Jealous of your own Son that's Fucked up beyond belief!!!! 

Tuesday, June 1, 2021

lonely soul

Thankfully my 3 children and friend I met online checked in with me today so I didn't feel so invisible and alone

3 yrs today 😭💔

Today was the day I Burnt my son to ashes!! 

family hey LOL

Woke up this morning had the urge to check up on every one make sure their OK! That's who I am see. But I resisted thought fuck it. No it was my son we said good bye too 3 years ago! Let's see who checks up on me for a change.. Hmm!!!! Still waiting.... 

Sunday, May 2, 2021

A GRIEVING PARENT IS . . . .



 A grieving parent is someone who'll never
forget their child no matter how painful the memories can be
  A grieving parent is someone who yearns to be with their dead child but cannot conceive leaving their living ones.
  A grieving parent is someone who has only part of a heart as the rest of its buried with their child.
A grieving parent is someone who begs for relief from the memories which plague them & then feels guilty when they get it.
A grieving parent is someone who pretends to be happy & enjoying life when they really are dying inside.
A grieving parent is someone who holds the lives of their remaining children as the most precious gift they have.
A grieving parent is someone who can cry or laugh at the drop of a hat whenever they remember their beloved child.
A grieving parent is someone who feels as if they've lost their child yesterday no matter how much time has passed.
A grieving parent is someone who fears for their remaining family because they cannot bear to have any more loss.
A grieving parent is someone who sits by their child’s gravestone & feels a knife stabbing their heart.
A grieving parent is someone who wants to help others who've lost a child because somehow their loss is theirs all over again.

💔💙

My Child

 

 


On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide,
I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious one

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