Hook Line Sinker!!

He really reeled me in!! Well he did love to fish 😂
Looking back i was 100%  vunerable and off the rails i had to move just after my abusive husband died because of his fucked up family. I was messed up with grief on my own at 21 with 3 children and constantly taking speed. I didn't know my arse from my elbow and my best friend was showering me with attention writing me songs looking at me like nobody has ever looked at me before it wrecked me i was the fucking matron of honour at his wedding his wife was my bestest friend in the world i loved her like a sister.  I couldn't cope with these feelings i tried distancing myself but they both kept seeking me out both confiding in me. She was treating him so bad she wasn't well mentally. ( i understand now why)  i started taking more speed to cope but it just made me give in more to his advances the spark between us was amazing we couldnt keep away from each other. He said we were soulmates and i believed him. I believed everything he ever said to me and moved many miles away isolated myself away from everyone then he left me all alone but i think i grew stronger for it. I remember We argued one morning and i was about to get out of bed. He was laying down i was sat upright and down from him. I can't remember what he said but it was enough for me to flip him in the face with the back of my hand and storm out of the room. He left after that and wouldn't return my calls. Obviously i was devasted i phoned his mother and she started screaming abuse at me saying he was in hospital because of me? I phoned my mother hysterical her and my dad came to get me and the kids and my dad wouldn't look at me he was disgusted with me after everything myself and my family had been through with my previous 2 relationships they thought i had actually punched him with enough force to break his cheek bone!!! I was devasted 1. They could even think that! And 2. HE could TELL people that. He knew a lot more than anyone else things i had been through i would never hit him like that. I told my parents about the boot falling on his face when we were away and they were mortified but I couldn't eat i couldn't sleep i went to the Drs hysterical and told her everything and she called the nurse in and had me to repeat everything and they both said it was impossible even if i had hit him at full impact the pillow would of softened it. So it must be an old injury do i remember an accident or anything so i told them about the boot falling down and hitting him in the side of the face and they saide it would of already been broken then i just aggravated it 😡 He put me through hell after all I've been through just for some sympathy that was when my eyes started opening to who he really was. I came down to port talbot for a night out with my cousin And he was txting me to go back to his mothers because they were at the caravan. So i jumped in a taxi. As soon as the taxi pulled up he was pulling me out he couldnt keep his hands off me. Telling me he missed me he was all over me until he heard the door openi g and he paniked and hid me in the bathroom! Because his stepfather had come home. Come on I'm his fucking wife what was he going to say!
He used me quite a few times for sex when we first split up giving me the impression it wasn't really over. Then totally blank me for months. But i just learned to bite my tongue for ewans sake. He insisted conah called him dad then refused to see him and stopped me from seeing the boys that broke my heart. Me and jay had to sit conah down and explain to conah. I'm so proud at how my kids stick together. And they still see the boys thankfully so i get to know how they are doing at least.

I Have Been Beaten, forced to have sex , hd a gun point at my head, a knife held to me. Locked up, Slowly Tortured over days, etc and i rather all them rather than  Mental and Emotional abuse. And obviously i went through this in my last Marriage and yes that is what it is called because the councillor that he and my mother forced me to see pointed it out to me and thats why i stopped going but of i couldn't tell him what she was saying about him could i. So this is why I'm still on my own 15 yrs later because i don't trust anyone not to hurt me and i can't deal with the head work so i rather just stay away.