Leaky eyes 😢

It's one of them days today he's on my mind constantly and the tears just keep flowing. When i think they have stopped they just start again!  that's why i call it leaky eyes because they just constantly leak 😐 this overwhelming sadness is unbearable how can i go through live like this so broken and hurt? Some days it's almost bearable i can control the tears atleast. It just creeps up on me almost like a panic attack but slower more drawn out.  And then I'm exhausted with the overwhelming sadness but yet i want to pull at my hair and scream in frustration because i know this is life now he's never coming home to me and i miss him so  much